Would life have been different for Johnnie if she hadn't been named after her dead uncle? Or if her mama hadn't been so beautiful and flighty? The grandparents who raised her were loving, but didn't understand her inner turmoil. And they had so many secrets. Now 43, Johnnie has three beautiful children a handsome, hardworking husband who adores her. But will the life she's always wanted - where she gets to pursue her own dreams - ever begin?